this post is about something sad

Here is a picture of Alexis' face before it comes in contact with the kitchen floor:















And here is a picture of after:




This evening I was putting groceries away and Alexis decided to stand on the seat of a toy stroller on the kitchen floor. I didn't know she was doing it until it started to roll and she fell forward, landing right on her face. She didn't catch herself with her hands so I knew it was going to be bad. And then she started to cry, but it wasn't her normal cry, it was the "I'm serious mom this really hurts" cry, and that confirmed that it was bad. Fortunately it's not broken (I think) because it's not seriously misaligned, but the bridge is pretty badly swollen and she managed to give herself the fattest lip I've ever seen, which makes her sound a little funny when she talks. And it also made it impossible for her to suck on her pacifier when she went to bed tonight. She was understandably VERY upset for awhile, but fortunately we had just bought "The Jungle Book" at the store so the new movie helped distract her.

However, there was nothing much to distract me, and all I could think about was how my little girl was hurting and I couldn't do a thing about it. And then I realized that this is only the beginning. What veteran parent hasn't had to deal with worse than this with at least one of their kids? And the thought has crossed my mind before in the past and a lot tonight, that if I have more kids than the two I already have, the more chances I have of dealing with stuff like this, or way worse, again. Oh man does it hurt to be a parent. And oh man does it hurt to be Alexis right now.